The complete This Song Is A Mess But So Am I recorded output is now available on bandcamp.
Occasionally I get an e-mail from someone looking for the This Song Is A Mess But So Am I recordings. Everything is pretty much out of print. Church Point, LA was put out by a Los Angeles label named Mattress Records. Marble Mouth was put out by a Spanish label called Acuarela There were a handful of split 7"s and cassette releases.
Occasionally when someone sends me an e-mail looking for the This Song Is A Mess But So Am I recordings I will occasionally listen through what I have littering the landscape of my hard drive.
Sometimes I feel embarrassed.
Other times I feel proud.
This Song Is A Mess But So Am I existed from 2003 until 2007. Originally the project dealt with a personal loss of a family member to cancer. Originally it was about something cathartic. I stopped it in 2007 when it was no longer cathartic.
Whether or not it was "okay" to have ever done and release This Song Is A Mess But So Am I recordings is something I still think about often and something I still grapple with in terms of whatever music project I am working on. Maybe it was for the better or maybe it was for worse. I can think of several instances for both sides of the fence.
This is one document of a very particular time in my life.
So here it is. For better or for worse (probably for worse). Everything that was ever recorded as This Song Is A Mess But So Am I from its fully realized resting place in the Satan Be Here sessions all the way to its earliest infantile stages.
At one time someone described This Song Is A Mess But So Am I as Skinny Puppy with equipment bought from Radioshak.
That seems fair.
50+ tracks in all of their completely tone deaf, lack of regard for quality control, infantile glory.
Download includes essay from Victor Szabo.
Thanks for being there.
Tracks 1-10 from the original Satan Be Here Sessions.
Tracks 11-18 from Marble Mouth E.P
Track 19 from split 7" with BARR.
Track 20 from a David Horvitz Photography Book.
Tracks 21-25 from Church Point, LA.
Tracks 36-40 from Satan Be Here session outtakes.
Track 41 is from a Marble Mouth demo.
Track 42 from the Groan Zone compilation.
Track 43-47 from a split cassette with E-Meow.
Track 45 and track 48 from a split 7" with Xiu Xiu.
Track 49 is an outtake from Church Point, LA.
Track 50 is from the Deathbomb Arc Tape Subscription series.
Track 51 is from a Not Not Fun cassette compilation.
Track 52 is from a Callow God cassette compilation.
Track 53 is from the Southbay Complication compilation.
Track 54 is from live at KXLU.